Bleh... (cryptic)

[nowalmart]

So yeah...

Yeah...

What else is there to say, really?

When thoughts, much less even words, cannot accurately describe how you are feeling.

Who knows...

If only...

At one time I thought I knew. Now I am not sure at all.

What would I do if I could go back a year? Three years? Five years? Ten years?

Who would I be now?

One day I am going to sit down and write out a description of some "If only..." possibilities.

Decisions that, at the time, were not right or wrong. Decisions that escape the 20/20 of hindsight.

What if I had made a left instead of a right?

I normally do not like getting bogged down in regretting past decisions and, indeed, I do not. I trust myself to know that I made the best decision I could at the time with the information at the time. However, I do wonder if I have a lot to learn from my past decisions. If I can notice a trend of results based on past decisions, then maybe I can change future decisions in order to come up with better results in the future.

I might start on that list tonight.

Comments

[bigpeteb.livejournal.com]

You're very much on a "Road Less Traveled" kick lately, aren't you?

I find it a nice change that I'm in a position to offer you advice and commentaries. Except that I realize suddenly that if I had any good advice to give, I'd be following it myself.

If I were you, here's what I would do: go eat something large and starchy, have some pineapple chunks and a nap, and then go harass a camper.

(Okay, so I'd probably make a sucky counselor. You're not an easy counselee, either, though.)

Finally responding...

[nowalmart.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I wanted to steer away from "Road less Traveled" but. It is not so much doing something "different" (in the sense of abnormal or otherwise contrary to my personality) but situations where the decision was largely a toss-up; where I could have gone either way and been happy with the decision either way.

It is an interesting thought process since it is not a matter of good/bad or right/wrong decisions, but rather just "different" outcomes.

Re: Finally responding...

[bigpeteb.livejournal.com]

I guess those are always the hardest things to wonder about, trying to figure out not whether things would be better or worse, but just how they'd be different. It can keep you up at night, if you let it...